PETE AND REPEAT

 I know that I repeat a lot in my blogs.  I am getting older so forgive me please.  I am in a Bible study on friendship.  I love learning more about Jesus and His example of friendship. 

I used to be the "fun" friend.  Growing up, I was the "life of the party" and made people laugh.  Somehow somewhere this person "died"  I blame it on emotional abuse.  I was scared to be myself for many years.  I want to be a fun friend.  I have lost the ability to make friends.  I am desparate to learn how to do this again.  But I am blessed with people I consiter friends.  I guess I try to hard to get everyone to like me and want to be around me.  I try to hard to find a "best" friend.  I have a best friend.  She has been my best friend since I was 9.  But sadly she lives in another state.  I have to admit..I DO have friends.  But I feel I am not the kind of friend I want to be.  I had a life lesson this past week.  I will talk about this later.   It has to do with conflict and someone still being my "friend" even though I behaved badly.  She thought nothing of it. 

To come later, I will write on my DIRTY LAUNDRY and how God loves and forgives me.  He sent his son to die for me!  He sent his son to die for you too!! 

I DO MULTIPLE TOPICS

    I have read many blogs and have noticed that most write on a single topic.  Their blogs flow with each blog they write.  They connect. 

Me, well, I do multiple topics.  I write on what God is teaching me. I write on what I want to teach others.  I write poetry.  I write reviews on books and movies.  In the future, I am going to write on abortion recovery.  I was trained to be able to lead a support group or on one on support for abortion recovery.  I loved doing this, so now I will just include abortion recovery from time to time.   I will also write on events in my personal life.  So, you can see that I don't stick to one topic each time I write.  I also write reviews for Traveladvisor.  This is a site to write reviews on tourism and traveling for many different things such as hotels, sights, restraunts, etc. 

I just watched a movie entitled, "Helen".  About a woman who was very depressed. It was kind of slow moving.  She ended up being treated with electro shock.  This seemed to help her the best, even though she lost part of her memory.  Prior therapies did not work for her.  It was educational as to showing what severe depression is like for those who suffer with it.   But the movie was kind of boring in parts. 

Thanks for reading and please come back again. 

SO MANY DIFFERENCES

I have visited many different churches throughout my lifetime.  Most do things the same,  but in different ways.  I feel that whatever a church does to worship and honor God is OK.  What matter the most is if they believe that God sent his son , born from a virgin, to die on the cross and be risen.  Jesus is his son and Mary is Jesus' mother.  Also what is important is that the church believes the whole Bible is true and that it is God's word.  I just wanted to write about some of the differences I has seen.  None of them are wrong in my opinion.

Offering: Some churches take offering at the end of the service, some at the very beginning, some in the middle and some just have a box where you deposit your offering on your way in or on your way out. 

Communion: I have been to many churches who pass the cup just the same way they pass the offering plate and the whole church drinks at the same time.  Then they repeat with the body of Christ.  For the body of Christ, there have been oyster crackers, little unleavened bread or something else.  I have also had both the cup and bread passed at the same time and you just take communion on your own.  I have been to churches where you walk to the front for communion.  One time everyone just tore off a piece of bread from a large uncut loaf.  Some have little or large disc's.  As for the blood of Christ (the cup) some churches  use grape juice or real wine.  I was surprised at I took communion at one church and the cup had real wine in it.  Children also get the same cup of real wine.  Some churches use koolaide. 

Music:  Very formal large choirs, or very casual choirs.  Some churches have a band and some just a piano.  Huge organs are found at some churches. 

Big pulpit's or little ones.  Some pastors just stand before the parisheners and talk without a microphone.  Even microphones are
different. 

I enjoy the differences. 

LET GO OF THE BOAT!!!

MORE THAN JUST A BOAT

It was a beautiful sunny day, a nice breeze was blowing on the day that I took my bundles to the beach.

The waves were calm. The boat just rocked slowly in the water.
It was still partly on the sand so I could easily toss my bags into the boat.
I had bags of various sizes.

The big bags were heavy, but they were the easiest to toss into the boat

I had been told that I should toss all my bags into the boat.

One by one, I surrendered them to the boat.
Darkness was setting in.
As the tide came in, the waves were getting bigger

And the boat was rocking more and more.
I needed to get all my bags in the boat.
By the time I got them all in, the boat was rocking heavily.
Up and down went the boat.

I had to hang onto the boat so it wouldn’t float away.
I stood there holding the boat which was getting harder and harder to do.

I thought maybe I should take back some of the bags.

But I couldn’t reach in and get them for the boat as rocking too hard.
The waves were getting rougher and I was just hanging on.

Hanging on to the boat containing all my baggage.
It was getting so hard

To keep my

Grip on

the boat.




Holding on to the all my worries, my troubles, my heartaches, my burdens, my sins,

everything that I needed to unload into the boat.
" But some of them need to come back out! I can deal with them myself!!" I told myself.

I just kept holding on to the boat

As the waves grew stronger.

Holding,
holding,

Holding.



“LET GO OF THE BOAT!” HE SAID.

 

COMING SOON..YE'ALL COME ON BACK..PLEASE

 I am going to write reviews for books and movies..  The books are childrens chapter books that I have had since I was a child.  The movies are just random movies.  I just saw one that I really enjoyed, and it had a message to it.  It is listed under suspense and horror, but it is no where like either of these.  The movie is entitled, "The Tall Man"   About good and bad.  With a twist.  I highly recommend it.  Please come back from time to time.  I dont write on any kind of schedule, I just write when I have time, or the spirit moves me. 

Just Repeating.

Some of the things I write, are things I learned in Sunday School or in Church.  I am not trying to commit plagerizm by repeating what I have heard.  I hope people dont mind me repeating things that I have learned.  

I feel I have some kind of charactor flaw.  People seem to like me ok, and then I talk to them and they avoid me. I dont get invited to Bible studies.  I have offered my help, but I am not asked to help.  I am so lonesome.  Summer is better since my son is home.  But most of the time, I am home alone and bored!  Even though I have a thousand things to do.  When I am home, I am just so depressed and I dont do anything.  I guess my lot in life is to just be alone.  BUT I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!!   The people who took advantage of me, are the ones who everyone likes.  I am just stating how I feel.  You know, I used to be a very funny person.  But somehow that person died.  

The other day I was thinking how happy I was.  I guess I need to focus on my blessings and just not think about that ails me.  I am happy!  Really!! 

FORGIVE US OUT DEBTS AS WE FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS

 "Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors"  One way that we say the Lords Prayer.  What is debt?  Is it always financial?  When we owe someone something.  Can oweing someone something be a slave/master situation?  It is a sin to be in debt or to owe anything to anyone.  What if you are the debtor?  What if you are the debtee?  What does the Bible say about being in debt?  What does the Bible say if someone owes you a debt?  What if you are overwhelmed with debt and have very little money?  What if your financial debt is part of your past or brought on by someone else.  So many questions that I hope to find answers to in God's Word.  What is God telling us??