LIFE IS CHANGING, BUT...
I was driving past Garner High school and it brought back many memories and thoughts. Garner High School was built in the 60's and my children's father went there in the 70s. My children went there in the 90s and 2000s. Many football games there. Many activities that we participated in. Now the building is gone and a new bigger one is coming up. This then led me to think about how life has so many changes. Nothing stays the same. New growth in housing, buildings businesses. People come into our lives and leave our lives, by moving on or by passing away. It is sort of sad in a way, but we are to think forward. The past may have been wonderful, but God says to not look to the past. Memories are good and they are bad. Forget the bad and hurt. Hang on to the happy memories. Hang on to the memories that made us grow. We are not who we used to be. There is a verse in the Bible about not thinking the past was better than today. (Ecc 7:10 ) Even though our lives are always changing , seasons they call it. Seasons of life as there are seasons of nature. The seasons are not always the same. Our lives are not always the same.( Ecc 3:1) BUT, there is one thing that is always always the same. God's word, and Jesus. (Heb 13:8) We can count on this. We can depend on this. We can trust this, as we can trust God that he has plans for us (Jeremiah 21:11) and he has our backs always always always! You just have to love His Son, Jesus Christ and believe He is the only way to eternity in Heaven. (John 14:6, John 3:36 and Romans 6:23) Heaven where there will be no more tears ever again. (Rev 21:4)
Hebrews 13:8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
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Tuesday, February 6, 2018
Sunday, January 28, 2018
Rereading is a good thing.
You know how you will read the Bible and then you read it again, places that you have read before, but this time verses jump out at you. The verses are packed with information. It's been there, you just didn't notice before. How could you have missed it before. you ask yourself. God opens our eyes sometimes and our hearts. We are going through 1 Peter in church. Facinating...but the whole Bible is fascinating. Today we were in the second chapter. These verses just jumped out. Answers to questions I have been asked. I never knew where in the Bible it said what I said as truth.
1 Peter 2 (NIV)
These verses tell us, those who love the Lord and believe Jesus as our savior and the only way to Heaven, that were are not of this fallen world. We are set apart and we are different. It is ok to be different. We belong to God and not the world. We do Godly things and not worldly things. We follow God and not follow the worlds views and beliefs.
13 Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human authority: whether to the emperor, as the supreme authority, 14 or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. 15 For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people. 16 Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God’s slaves. 17 Show proper respect to everyone, love the family of believers, fear God, honor the emperor.
We believers in Christ are to be an example of Christ. Or try to, we are not perfect and God knows this and is forgiving. But try to do good. Some think that because they are Jesus followers and know they are going to heaven and that they will be forgiven, that they can just do as they please and continue sinning and doing bad things. Living a worldly life you might say. Cant have both , the world and Heaven. Live for the Lord, when you make a mistake, confess to God and repent. If you don't feel bad for your sin, then you have not repented (or turned away and try to do better) People who use this excuse to continue a sinful life because they know they are forgiven, need to read verse 16. Verse 17 says to show respect to EVERYONE!! We can respectfully tell someone that what they do is wrong. But we don't need to argue or get angry. State the truth and be respectful to them. If they don't listen, just walk away. Don't take things personally. The battle is a spiritual one. Walk away and pray for them. We are to love our family of believers (Jesus followers) This is where the Bible says to love. We love those in our family (Gods family) and respect those who are not. This verse 17, says soo much in how we deal with the world and with our family of fellow Jesus believers. RESPECT NON BELIEVERS, LOVE BELIEVERS. RESPECT IS ALSO SHOWING THE LOVE OF JESUS. WE DO LOVE THOSE WHO ARE WORLDLY, BY TELLING THEM OF THEIR SIN AND SHARING JESUS, THIS IS LOVE BECAUSE WE DONT WANT THEM TO GO TO HELL. WE WANT TO SEE EVERYONE IN HEAVEN WITH US. THAT IS LOVE, NOT WANTING ANYONE TO BURN.
1 Peter 2 (NIV)
2 Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind. 2
I knew that the angry way of dealing with people who hurt was wrong. That the Bible says that vengeance is wrong. Leave all that for God to deal with. HE has our backs. So this verse reminds me to not try to "get back or get even" , to not be jealous of those who hurt me or get away with doing wrong, to not talk badly about them which is what I understand slander to be. I am guilty about talking badly about those who have hurt me or took advantage and don't see what they have done is wrong. I just need to give it up to God. Lay it down at the feet of Jesus. "Let it go" or "Let it be" Sometimes we all just need to be reminded of what we already know in our hearts. Thank you God.
The Living Stone and a Chosen People
4 As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by humans but chosen by God and precious to him— 5 you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house[a] to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ. 6 For in Scripture it says:
“See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a chosen and precious cornerstone,
and the one who trusts in him
will never be put to shame.”[b]
a chosen and precious cornerstone,
and the one who trusts in him
will never be put to shame.”[b]
7 Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe,
“The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone,”[c]
has become the cornerstone,”[c]
8 and,
“A stone that causes people to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall.”[d]
and a rock that makes them fall.”[d]
They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.
9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.These verses tell us, those who love the Lord and believe Jesus as our savior and the only way to Heaven, that were are not of this fallen world. We are set apart and we are different. It is ok to be different. We belong to God and not the world. We do Godly things and not worldly things. We follow God and not follow the worlds views and beliefs.
Living Godly Lives in a Pagan Society
11 Dear friends, I urge you, as foreigners and exiles, to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul. 12 Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us.13 Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human authority: whether to the emperor, as the supreme authority, 14 or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. 15 For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people. 16 Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God’s slaves. 17 Show proper respect to everyone, love the family of believers, fear God, honor the emperor.
We believers in Christ are to be an example of Christ. Or try to, we are not perfect and God knows this and is forgiving. But try to do good. Some think that because they are Jesus followers and know they are going to heaven and that they will be forgiven, that they can just do as they please and continue sinning and doing bad things. Living a worldly life you might say. Cant have both , the world and Heaven. Live for the Lord, when you make a mistake, confess to God and repent. If you don't feel bad for your sin, then you have not repented (or turned away and try to do better) People who use this excuse to continue a sinful life because they know they are forgiven, need to read verse 16. Verse 17 says to show respect to EVERYONE!! We can respectfully tell someone that what they do is wrong. But we don't need to argue or get angry. State the truth and be respectful to them. If they don't listen, just walk away. Don't take things personally. The battle is a spiritual one. Walk away and pray for them. We are to love our family of believers (Jesus followers) This is where the Bible says to love. We love those in our family (Gods family) and respect those who are not. This verse 17, says soo much in how we deal with the world and with our family of fellow Jesus believers. RESPECT NON BELIEVERS, LOVE BELIEVERS. RESPECT IS ALSO SHOWING THE LOVE OF JESUS. WE DO LOVE THOSE WHO ARE WORLDLY, BY TELLING THEM OF THEIR SIN AND SHARING JESUS, THIS IS LOVE BECAUSE WE DONT WANT THEM TO GO TO HELL. WE WANT TO SEE EVERYONE IN HEAVEN WITH US. THAT IS LOVE, NOT WANTING ANYONE TO BURN.
Monday, July 10, 2017
HE IS WITH US
For past month (or so) I have run across the same message over and over though my daily Bible reading, devotional books and prayer times...and that is God is always with us and he listens. Sometimes with so much going on and a person feel overwhelmed with life or the world...he thinks...God is with me, but not doing anything. Or I know God is with me and I know I will be ok..I just have to trust Him. As I said, this message, "God is with you and He listens" has been popping up a lot. Today, God gave me an example in my own life and in something my mom said years ago. First, when my husband died and I was feeling the overwhelming sadness a couple of days after the funeral, my dad showed up at my house. He just sat down and opened the book that he was reading at the time. He was just "there" but that was so comforting. It reminded me of my dad throughout my childhood when he was not at work, most of the time he would be sitting in his chair and reading. My dad was always "there" and that was a comfort to me my whole life. Things may have been going on in my life that were bothersome, but my dad was there and I knew I was going to be ok. My mom told me the story of when she was in labor with me. She's in labor (at home, before they went to the hosp) and my dad is sitting in his chair reading. She said it really helped that he was there being calm, and she knew she was going to be ok because the love of her life was sitting not too far away, ready to do whatever she needed him to do. (My dad said he read the same sentence about a 100 times....he was nervous, but didnt let mom know it) So, God sighting, God is with us, always. Just knowing he is with us through the good and the bad and it looks like he is not doing anything, he is there WITH US, and that is a comfort. Forgive me for writing so much....another God sighting when Paul (my husband now) was picking me up from TN after my daughter broke her ankle, on the ride home, the song "Even If" came on and Paul was singing along with the song, it said a lot to me. With all the turmoil in the world and, it seems God is not doing anything. God wants everyone to turn to Him. So he allows it. He also allows those who reject Him to just live in their sin...thats what they want. But with all this trouble in our world, we belong to HIM. We are HIS. Our hope is in HIM. Our trust is in HIM. Our hope is in HIM ALONE. (got off on a tangent....for a second) Paul was singing and it was perfect...peace...a turning point in my marriage. All is well. (for the most part )
💖 God is good all the time. He cares.
For past month (or so) I have run across the same message over and over though my daily Bible reading, devotional books and prayer times...and that is God is always with us and he listens. Sometimes with so much going on and a person feel overwhelmed with life or the world...he thinks...God is with me, but not doing anything. Or I know God is with me and I know I will be ok..I just have to trust Him. As I said, this message, "God is with you and He listens" has been popping up a lot. Today, God gave me an example in my own life and in something my mom said years ago. First, when my husband died and I was feeling the overwhelming sadness a couple of days after the funeral, my dad showed up at my house. He just sat down and opened the book that he was reading at the time. He was just "there" but that was so comforting. It reminded me of my dad throughout my childhood when he was not at work, most of the time he would be sitting in his chair and reading. My dad was always "there" and that was a comfort to me my whole life. Things may have been going on in my life that were bothersome, but my dad was there and I knew I was going to be ok. My mom told me the story of when she was in labor with me. She's in labor (at home, before they went to the hosp) and my dad is sitting in his chair reading. She said it really helped that he was there being calm, and she knew she was going to be ok because the love of her life was sitting not too far away, ready to do whatever she needed him to do. (My dad said he read the same sentence about a 100 times....he was nervous, but didnt let mom know it) So, God sighting, God is with us, always. Just knowing he is with us through the good and the bad and it looks like he is not doing anything, he is there WITH US, and that is a comfort. Forgive me for writing so much....another God sighting when Paul (my husband now) was picking me up from TN after my daughter broke her ankle, on the ride home, the song "Even If" came on and Paul was singing along with the song, it said a lot to me. With all the turmoil in the world and, it seems God is not doing anything. God wants everyone to turn to Him. So he allows it. He also allows those who reject Him to just live in their sin...thats what they want. But with all this trouble in our world, we belong to HIM. We are HIS. Our hope is in HIM. Our trust is in HIM. Our hope is in HIM ALONE. (got off on a tangent....for a second) Paul was singing and it was perfect...peace...a turning point in my marriage. All is well. (for the most part )
💖 God is good all the time. He cares.
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Saturday, March 12, 2016
ARE THEY TOO FAR GONE?
Around 22 years ago I went to a bar ...alone...and there was this really cute man sitting near me. I ended up taking him to his house. But first we talked about our families. He had two little boys, but wasn't married. I had a whole family...married with children. He invited me in and then forced sex on me. Rape is what they call it. I didn't know. I felt violated. I went home and showered and scrubbed all areas of my body. He was a low life. I felt sorry for his kids. My mistake was going to a bar and being nice to give this handsome man a ride home. I am just too nice.
Now here it is 22 years later and I am a facebook addict. This man has a facebook page. From what I can tell he is a drunk. His life involves drinking all day until he passes out or ends up in the hospital. Sad. I checked on his sons. Both in their early 20s. 23 and 24. Both of their lives are employment where ever they can get it. Their jobs last about two weeks. They get paid well and just blow it. They both have been in and out of jail, prison, rehab, court, and the hospital for drug overdosing. A different sex partner almost weekly. I feel they are beyond hope. But are they? Jesus can turn people around and heal them. Is there a point when Jesus will just walk away? These two young men are so young to be in this kind of lifestyle. I pray they will someday find Jesus and look to him for a life changing.
Around 22 years ago I went to a bar ...alone...and there was this really cute man sitting near me. I ended up taking him to his house. But first we talked about our families. He had two little boys, but wasn't married. I had a whole family...married with children. He invited me in and then forced sex on me. Rape is what they call it. I didn't know. I felt violated. I went home and showered and scrubbed all areas of my body. He was a low life. I felt sorry for his kids. My mistake was going to a bar and being nice to give this handsome man a ride home. I am just too nice.
Now here it is 22 years later and I am a facebook addict. This man has a facebook page. From what I can tell he is a drunk. His life involves drinking all day until he passes out or ends up in the hospital. Sad. I checked on his sons. Both in their early 20s. 23 and 24. Both of their lives are employment where ever they can get it. Their jobs last about two weeks. They get paid well and just blow it. They both have been in and out of jail, prison, rehab, court, and the hospital for drug overdosing. A different sex partner almost weekly. I feel they are beyond hope. But are they? Jesus can turn people around and heal them. Is there a point when Jesus will just walk away? These two young men are so young to be in this kind of lifestyle. I pray they will someday find Jesus and look to him for a life changing.
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
GOD SIGHTING
At my church, we have a time of sharing "God sightings" These are things that happen in our everyday normal lives that glorify God, reminds us of God, our prayer request or praises. I love this time during our church service because we share with each other. It also gives me a chance to get to know the others in my church family. We are just a small group now, but a close group. All different but with one thing in common, we love the Lord Jesus Christ .
My "God sighting" for today is: My future daughter in law posted on Facebook a video of a man singing, "Victory in Jesus" ( a beautiful hymn) She said it reminded her of her grandma who would sing it with a big smile on her face. This post is the best post I have ever seen on Facebook. It shows the love of Jesus shown by a grandmother. Singing for the Lord with joy. Her granddaughter watching and listening. It made an impact on the grandchild. What a legacy. Beautiful. My future daughter in law loves her grandma very much. Her grandma was a big part of her childhood. Grandparents have a huge impact on their grandchildren. They also raised the parents of these grandchildren. My mother's mother was the most Godly lady that I knew. She was so loving and caring. She reflected the Proverbs 31 women. The Godly wife and mother. She raised my mom who was also very Godly. My mom wanted her life to glorify God in everything she did.
She wanted her children to Love the Lord too. Mom loved the old hymns just as my future daughter in law's grandma did.
"There is joy in the Lord, there is hope in the knowledge of Him" These are the words that come to my mind when I think of my Lord and savior, Jesus. Our lives are not perfect. Not mine, not my moms, not my grandma's, not my daughter in law's and not her grandma's. But thinking that even when they were in crisis, they sang songs of worship to God. Songs of joy. Songs of thanksgiving. Thank you "manda" for posting your memory of your grandma singing about the Lord and smiling. God is so good.
My "God sighting" for today is: My future daughter in law posted on Facebook a video of a man singing, "Victory in Jesus" ( a beautiful hymn) She said it reminded her of her grandma who would sing it with a big smile on her face. This post is the best post I have ever seen on Facebook. It shows the love of Jesus shown by a grandmother. Singing for the Lord with joy. Her granddaughter watching and listening. It made an impact on the grandchild. What a legacy. Beautiful. My future daughter in law loves her grandma very much. Her grandma was a big part of her childhood. Grandparents have a huge impact on their grandchildren. They also raised the parents of these grandchildren. My mother's mother was the most Godly lady that I knew. She was so loving and caring. She reflected the Proverbs 31 women. The Godly wife and mother. She raised my mom who was also very Godly. My mom wanted her life to glorify God in everything she did.
She wanted her children to Love the Lord too. Mom loved the old hymns just as my future daughter in law's grandma did.
"There is joy in the Lord, there is hope in the knowledge of Him" These are the words that come to my mind when I think of my Lord and savior, Jesus. Our lives are not perfect. Not mine, not my moms, not my grandma's, not my daughter in law's and not her grandma's. But thinking that even when they were in crisis, they sang songs of worship to God. Songs of joy. Songs of thanksgiving. Thank you "manda" for posting your memory of your grandma singing about the Lord and smiling. God is so good.
Saturday, May 30, 2015
NOT DOING WELL
I love to write, and wish I did it daily. Or even weekly. I am angry with myself for not doing more often than I do.
Life has been so hard lately. Too much going on at one time. I feel alone. I have no one who truly cares to continue to hear my problems. I don't want to seem like all I talk about is doom, sadness, anger. But! I do post happy joyful things on facebook.
With so much stress and sadness and worries, I have withdrawn from talking to people. No one really cares except God. My life long childhood friend cares. But I don't want to be so depressed with her all the time. She has her own tragic events. I hurt for her. I cry over her losses.
My daughter just got married. A happy thing. She married a good man who loves her and her children. she is 10 hours away. She and the children are not here anymore. I miss them a lot. A happy loss. Little did we know the events to follow. Life changing events. All within a two week period. The bad within a weeks time.
My youngest moved out with his fiancee' My nest is empty. He is just 3 minutes down the road, but on his own now. Kind of a loss, but a happy one.
My son in law (my daughter's first husband and father of the children) died. He had been so sick and in the hospital for many months. He had just gotten out very soon after my daughter got married. The children were looking forward to coming here to spend the summer with their daddy. He passed less than two weeks before they were to travel here. They didn't get to see him before he passed. Heartbreaking. So heartbreaking. Heartbreaking for his parents as well.
The day of his memorial, my older son was in a very bad wreck. Hurt, but not severely. The witnesses have lied about what happened. Well maybe not lied, but saw what happened so differently than what actually happened. He needs an attorney.
My marriage is bad, in my opinion. I feel no love from my husband. Of course he feels the same way. He is very narcissistic in personality. Drives me crazy!! I hate it. I finally told him how I feel. But he didn't change. Just was very defensive. I don't know how to handle him. I don't know what to say. I cant talk to him. His mind is sick.
My father has been the executor of my moms estate and is in a horrible mess. He doesn't understand it all. He wont let me help. He wants to do everything on his own. I have lost sleep worrying over it. What a mess.
My heart hurt so much. I cry a lot. As I said earlier, I don't want to talk or see anyone that is not family. I am very antisocial right now. I just want my family. Is this normal? Do I need meds to help me feel better? I just need time to pray and think. Talk to my God. He is wise beyond our comprehension. He can make a way when there is no way.
There is a song that Jeremy Camp sings, that I have been listening over and over and over. HE KNOWS...HE KNOWS..EVERY HURT AND EVERY STING....
Life has been so hard lately. Too much going on at one time. I feel alone. I have no one who truly cares to continue to hear my problems. I don't want to seem like all I talk about is doom, sadness, anger. But! I do post happy joyful things on facebook.
With so much stress and sadness and worries, I have withdrawn from talking to people. No one really cares except God. My life long childhood friend cares. But I don't want to be so depressed with her all the time. She has her own tragic events. I hurt for her. I cry over her losses.
My daughter just got married. A happy thing. She married a good man who loves her and her children. she is 10 hours away. She and the children are not here anymore. I miss them a lot. A happy loss. Little did we know the events to follow. Life changing events. All within a two week period. The bad within a weeks time.
My youngest moved out with his fiancee' My nest is empty. He is just 3 minutes down the road, but on his own now. Kind of a loss, but a happy one.
My son in law (my daughter's first husband and father of the children) died. He had been so sick and in the hospital for many months. He had just gotten out very soon after my daughter got married. The children were looking forward to coming here to spend the summer with their daddy. He passed less than two weeks before they were to travel here. They didn't get to see him before he passed. Heartbreaking. So heartbreaking. Heartbreaking for his parents as well.
The day of his memorial, my older son was in a very bad wreck. Hurt, but not severely. The witnesses have lied about what happened. Well maybe not lied, but saw what happened so differently than what actually happened. He needs an attorney.
My marriage is bad, in my opinion. I feel no love from my husband. Of course he feels the same way. He is very narcissistic in personality. Drives me crazy!! I hate it. I finally told him how I feel. But he didn't change. Just was very defensive. I don't know how to handle him. I don't know what to say. I cant talk to him. His mind is sick.
My father has been the executor of my moms estate and is in a horrible mess. He doesn't understand it all. He wont let me help. He wants to do everything on his own. I have lost sleep worrying over it. What a mess.
My heart hurt so much. I cry a lot. As I said earlier, I don't want to talk or see anyone that is not family. I am very antisocial right now. I just want my family. Is this normal? Do I need meds to help me feel better? I just need time to pray and think. Talk to my God. He is wise beyond our comprehension. He can make a way when there is no way.
There is a song that Jeremy Camp sings, that I have been listening over and over and over. HE KNOWS...HE KNOWS..EVERY HURT AND EVERY STING....
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
"The Rest of the Story"
Eighty one years ago a lady named Ruth gave birth to twins. It was December third, in the year of our Lord, nineteen thirty three. The twins were not due for quite some time. The first baby was a girl, Jan who was so tiny and fragile. Then arrived a tiny baby boy, Thomas. Sadly Thomas only lived for a short time. Ruth was a nurse and she did everything she knew to take care of her precious miracle. You see back in those days a premature infant did not survive. Jan was a miracle. God had a plan. Ruth raised her daughter to be a God honoring lady. Ruth herself was a very God honoring wife and mother. Jan had a good example to follow.
Jan survived and had a childhood on a farm. She went off to college, where she fell in love and later married. A few years passed and she welcomed a baby daughter. Fast forward in time, at the age of nineteen this daughter found herself pregnant. She was not married and was very scared. She saw no solution or hope for the situation except to terminate the pregnancy. Jan being a follower of Christ, knew it was wrong. She tried to talk to her daughter, but the daughter didn't listen. She prayed and prayed about it. She felt much guilt because she thought she taught her daughter to make better choices. Jan was hurting so she called her mother and shared her painful feelings. Ruth told her a story that gave her some comfort. A story of forgiveness and comfort.
Years went by and Jan's daughter was battling shame on a daily basis. She would pray and tell God she wanted her baby back. The guilt was overwhelming. She told her mother that she regretted her decision to kill her first child. It was then that Jan told her daughter her grandmother's story.
When Ruth found out she was pregnant, it was a very poor time for her family. The timing was wrong. So being a nurse, she knew of a medicine that could possibly terminate her pregnancy. It didn't work...or did it? Then when it was too soon for the babies to be born, she went into labor. She felt a over baring guilt and shame for many years because her babies came so early and her husband's son had died. She loved her little Jan dearly and tended to her to keep her alive. She rejoiced daily as tiny Jan got bigger and stronger.
But inside Ruth felt God was angry with her. She learned through scripture reading that God loves her dearly and that He knows we make mistakes. This is why he sent his son to die for us. She had known this all her life and was thankful that God reminded her.
You see Jan feared that her mother would shun her daughter. But it was not the case. Ruth loved her granddaughter even more. She taught her granddaughter that Jesus loves us no matter what! She taught her by her example of how a Godly woman should be. A loving and serving wife and mother.
My grandmother was the most loving person I have ever known. Everything she did was showing love. I miss her hugs. Hugs from a grandparent are very warming. This is why I love hugging my grandchildren. My grandmother was the most Godly woman I knew. My mother was very Godly too and she had a good teacher. My grandmother loved my mom dearly. Mom was very precious to my grandma. My grandma loved each of her daughters with all of her heart.
Mom passed away 10 years ago as I was sitting beside her. I was sitting and just listening to her deep breathing..lost in my own thoughts when all of the sudden it was very quiet.
Thank you Lord for my grandma, who loved her little miracle. Thank you Lord for my mom who would have been eighty one today.
Jan survived and had a childhood on a farm. She went off to college, where she fell in love and later married. A few years passed and she welcomed a baby daughter. Fast forward in time, at the age of nineteen this daughter found herself pregnant. She was not married and was very scared. She saw no solution or hope for the situation except to terminate the pregnancy. Jan being a follower of Christ, knew it was wrong. She tried to talk to her daughter, but the daughter didn't listen. She prayed and prayed about it. She felt much guilt because she thought she taught her daughter to make better choices. Jan was hurting so she called her mother and shared her painful feelings. Ruth told her a story that gave her some comfort. A story of forgiveness and comfort.
Years went by and Jan's daughter was battling shame on a daily basis. She would pray and tell God she wanted her baby back. The guilt was overwhelming. She told her mother that she regretted her decision to kill her first child. It was then that Jan told her daughter her grandmother's story.
When Ruth found out she was pregnant, it was a very poor time for her family. The timing was wrong. So being a nurse, she knew of a medicine that could possibly terminate her pregnancy. It didn't work...or did it? Then when it was too soon for the babies to be born, she went into labor. She felt a over baring guilt and shame for many years because her babies came so early and her husband's son had died. She loved her little Jan dearly and tended to her to keep her alive. She rejoiced daily as tiny Jan got bigger and stronger.
But inside Ruth felt God was angry with her. She learned through scripture reading that God loves her dearly and that He knows we make mistakes. This is why he sent his son to die for us. She had known this all her life and was thankful that God reminded her.
You see Jan feared that her mother would shun her daughter. But it was not the case. Ruth loved her granddaughter even more. She taught her granddaughter that Jesus loves us no matter what! She taught her by her example of how a Godly woman should be. A loving and serving wife and mother.
My grandmother was the most loving person I have ever known. Everything she did was showing love. I miss her hugs. Hugs from a grandparent are very warming. This is why I love hugging my grandchildren. My grandmother was the most Godly woman I knew. My mother was very Godly too and she had a good teacher. My grandmother loved my mom dearly. Mom was very precious to my grandma. My grandma loved each of her daughters with all of her heart.
Mom passed away 10 years ago as I was sitting beside her. I was sitting and just listening to her deep breathing..lost in my own thoughts when all of the sudden it was very quiet.
Thank you Lord for my grandma, who loved her little miracle. Thank you Lord for my mom who would have been eighty one today.
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Truth
Its not up to us to judge. We should speak the truth and if people don't listen, walk away. God will judge them for not following HIS rules. There are so many sins in this world that God lists in the Bible. A lot of them are worldly and wont get you into Heaven. Heaven is where Jesus is. Heaven is eternal. Not everyone will get to go to Heaven. Some will go to the fire for eternity.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
I FORGIVE YOU MOMMY
Went to a crisis pregnancy banquet/fundraiser last night. I was so impressed how easily that the speakers could confess their sin of abortion. If these well liked people could talk publically about this horrible thing, then maybe so can I. I have been so afraid to talk to people about myself and my past because I want people to like me. I have found that when I did talk about being married to a drug addict and all that entails, or the fact that he was abusive, people shunned me and didnt talk to me anymore. What would they think if I talked about killing my first baby? Some people say to not talk about the past or to forget it. But if I can help someone in some way, then I will talk about it. Also bringing the dark into the light can help with healing.
"Black is Black..I want my baby back" ''I am so sorry Lord" "My darling baby, I am so so so very sorry" I said these words over and over , almost daily for years. Many many tears. I felt like dirt. I deserved to be hurt. I learned that God does forgive this horrible sin. Through Jesus our Lord. His blood covered my sins. I just needed to forgive myself and accept God's forgiveness.
11 years and 15 days after the day I would like to forget, but I remember every detail, I was feeling so sad. I was reading the Bible and just crying ..sobbing..and telling my child that I was so sorry. The room got really quiet and so did I, " I FORGIVE YOU MOMMY" was spoken aloud. A sweet child's voice. At that moment, a huge weight had lifted. I had an enormous peace. I never felt guilty again. I knew I was forgiven and that it was all ok.
But I did still have the shame that I would ever do such a thing. But Jesus took my shame away too. He covered my shame.
Later through an abortion recovery group meeting I gave my baby a name..Emy Rose Evans. I always felt it was a little girl.
One day, years later, my mom and I were talking and she brought up the subject of that day I aborted my baby. She went with me to the Fleming Center which was an abortion place. That is all they did there. She felt such great guilt and so shamed that she would "support" me in doing that. (She was there for me because she loved me dearly but did not approve of my decision) She told me how bad she felt about that day. She felt so bad that she called her mother. My grandma was the most Godly lady I have ever known. She was an awesome woman. I thought, "NO!! YOU DIDNT TELL GRANDMA!!"
Grandma probably hated me then. How could I ever face my grandma again. My mom said that her mother told her "her story"
My grandma was pregnant with twins, my mom and her brother. My grandparents had a two year old already and they were very poor at the time. "How are we going to afford two more babies?" My grandma was a nurse and she knew of ways that women aborted babies back then. Some kind of medicine they could take. So my grandma took this medicine. It didnt work at that time. She went into labor two months later when the babie's were two months early. My mom's twin brother died. My grandma blamed herself. For years she blamed herself. My grandpa had lost all of his sons. He had no sons to carry on his name. My grandma felt she caused baby Thomas' death.
She took extra loving care of my mom when she was born. My mom always felt that she wasnt special..she felt her sisters mattered more to her mother. But my grandma told my mom that she was very special to her. She knew that God forgave her for what she did and she praised God for letting her little Janice survive. It was a mircle back in the early 30s for a baby so premature to survive..But God did It!! I miss my mom so much!! I praise God for Mother and daughter relationships. A gift that he gives us.
TO BE CONTINUED:
Later the affects of abortion...grief, depression, shame, drug and alcohol abuse, sin and more sin, and even suicide. God can get you through it. He loves you so much!!
"Black is Black..I want my baby back" ''I am so sorry Lord" "My darling baby, I am so so so very sorry" I said these words over and over , almost daily for years. Many many tears. I felt like dirt. I deserved to be hurt. I learned that God does forgive this horrible sin. Through Jesus our Lord. His blood covered my sins. I just needed to forgive myself and accept God's forgiveness.
11 years and 15 days after the day I would like to forget, but I remember every detail, I was feeling so sad. I was reading the Bible and just crying ..sobbing..and telling my child that I was so sorry. The room got really quiet and so did I, " I FORGIVE YOU MOMMY" was spoken aloud. A sweet child's voice. At that moment, a huge weight had lifted. I had an enormous peace. I never felt guilty again. I knew I was forgiven and that it was all ok.
But I did still have the shame that I would ever do such a thing. But Jesus took my shame away too. He covered my shame.
Later through an abortion recovery group meeting I gave my baby a name..Emy Rose Evans. I always felt it was a little girl.
One day, years later, my mom and I were talking and she brought up the subject of that day I aborted my baby. She went with me to the Fleming Center which was an abortion place. That is all they did there. She felt such great guilt and so shamed that she would "support" me in doing that. (She was there for me because she loved me dearly but did not approve of my decision) She told me how bad she felt about that day. She felt so bad that she called her mother. My grandma was the most Godly lady I have ever known. She was an awesome woman. I thought, "NO!! YOU DIDNT TELL GRANDMA!!"
Grandma probably hated me then. How could I ever face my grandma again. My mom said that her mother told her "her story"
My grandma was pregnant with twins, my mom and her brother. My grandparents had a two year old already and they were very poor at the time. "How are we going to afford two more babies?" My grandma was a nurse and she knew of ways that women aborted babies back then. Some kind of medicine they could take. So my grandma took this medicine. It didnt work at that time. She went into labor two months later when the babie's were two months early. My mom's twin brother died. My grandma blamed herself. For years she blamed herself. My grandpa had lost all of his sons. He had no sons to carry on his name. My grandma felt she caused baby Thomas' death.
She took extra loving care of my mom when she was born. My mom always felt that she wasnt special..she felt her sisters mattered more to her mother. But my grandma told my mom that she was very special to her. She knew that God forgave her for what she did and she praised God for letting her little Janice survive. It was a mircle back in the early 30s for a baby so premature to survive..But God did It!! I miss my mom so much!! I praise God for Mother and daughter relationships. A gift that he gives us.
TO BE CONTINUED:
Later the affects of abortion...grief, depression, shame, drug and alcohol abuse, sin and more sin, and even suicide. God can get you through it. He loves you so much!!
Monday, November 19, 2012
Overwhelming : (
Well..I have so much I want to write about. It is the time of year of joy and holidays. Peace and Love. Family. Hmmm SUPPOSED TO BE THAT WAY!
Today I look around and see sad things. I am trying to find the positive. I am looking forward a new Grandson. This is very joyous! Praises that my husband has a job..but work is very slow now thanks to Sandy. Yes still slow.
I sometimes just write to "vent". Writing is theraputic. I also pray and God gives me Peace.
I dont talk much. Out of fear people will run away from me or will argue with me. I dont like conflict at all. THIS is a weakness of mine. I also dont say anything sometimes because what will come out of my mouth will be anger. I dont have the ability to speak "in love"
My favorite saying of all is "If you can't say something nice , dont say nothing at all" (THUMPER)
The elections are over and I thought all the hate would stop. But it continues. Christians are being hateful about Obama. Pray for the man! He is the head of our country. But God is the head of the world. God is control! Stop complaining! Look to our God and Saviour. HE loves us very much. Show him you love HIM too. Sing Praises!
A woman is so unhappy in her marriage so she feels it is ok to have an affair. What about her children? She is neglecting them. If she hates her husband that much, why does she leave her children in his care 98% of the time? He is doing an awesome job of being a father to his children. This man is not well, but does the best he can. He loves his wife so very much and tries so hard to please her. He is a truly a gentle soul. Yes he has had his times of rage and has hurt her physically and emotionally. I UNDERSTAND! MORE THAN SHE KNOWS..I UNDERSTAND! I too have made the wrong choises to deal with my hurt. Circumstances are different..simular yet different. God used mine to bring me closer to him. He forgave me and he was patient. Maybe I should be patient with this woman. It breaks my heart though that she is "so happy" now and justifies her behavior....but she is blind to the fact that she is neglecting her husband and children. She is focused on herself. Please God get her focus back on YOU. Bring her back to you Lord.
I get so upset by evil people living evil lives and thinking everyone owes them something. They depend on others to GIVE them what they NEED. They spend their money on what they WANT. When deeds of kindness are done for them, they are ungrateful. So why would anyone want to continue doing nice things for them? Is this the wrong attitude?
How can people live a happy life getting drunk, getting high, having sex with man after man? I dont get it!! Then they complain when life is hard. I want to scream.....YOU DONT HAVE JESUS IN YOUR LIFE!!!"
I try to be a loving example of Christ's love. I know the bible says to not grow weary doing good. But my heart is broken for people not living for Christ.
I cry over all the people mentioned in this blog. I pray for all of them.
I need to put them in the boat...and let go of the boat.
LET GO OF THE BOAT, LAURIE!!
Today I look around and see sad things. I am trying to find the positive. I am looking forward a new Grandson. This is very joyous! Praises that my husband has a job..but work is very slow now thanks to Sandy. Yes still slow.
I sometimes just write to "vent". Writing is theraputic. I also pray and God gives me Peace.
I dont talk much. Out of fear people will run away from me or will argue with me. I dont like conflict at all. THIS is a weakness of mine. I also dont say anything sometimes because what will come out of my mouth will be anger. I dont have the ability to speak "in love"
My favorite saying of all is "If you can't say something nice , dont say nothing at all" (THUMPER)
I thought the politcal stuff would stop after the election. The negativity is making me sick!! Where is the love? But I cant say anything negative to anyone or speak my mind because I get attacked like a lion pouncing to tear my mouth up.
The elections are over and I thought all the hate would stop. But it continues. Christians are being hateful about Obama. Pray for the man! He is the head of our country. But God is the head of the world. God is control! Stop complaining! Look to our God and Saviour. HE loves us very much. Show him you love HIM too. Sing Praises!
A woman is so unhappy in her marriage so she feels it is ok to have an affair. What about her children? She is neglecting them. If she hates her husband that much, why does she leave her children in his care 98% of the time? He is doing an awesome job of being a father to his children. This man is not well, but does the best he can. He loves his wife so very much and tries so hard to please her. He is a truly a gentle soul. Yes he has had his times of rage and has hurt her physically and emotionally. I UNDERSTAND! MORE THAN SHE KNOWS..I UNDERSTAND! I too have made the wrong choises to deal with my hurt. Circumstances are different..simular yet different. God used mine to bring me closer to him. He forgave me and he was patient. Maybe I should be patient with this woman. It breaks my heart though that she is "so happy" now and justifies her behavior....but she is blind to the fact that she is neglecting her husband and children. She is focused on herself. Please God get her focus back on YOU. Bring her back to you Lord.
I get so upset by evil people living evil lives and thinking everyone owes them something. They depend on others to GIVE them what they NEED. They spend their money on what they WANT. When deeds of kindness are done for them, they are ungrateful. So why would anyone want to continue doing nice things for them? Is this the wrong attitude?
How can people live a happy life getting drunk, getting high, having sex with man after man? I dont get it!! Then they complain when life is hard. I want to scream.....YOU DONT HAVE JESUS IN YOUR LIFE!!!"
I try to be a loving example of Christ's love. I know the bible says to not grow weary doing good. But my heart is broken for people not living for Christ.
I cry over all the people mentioned in this blog. I pray for all of them.
I need to put them in the boat...and let go of the boat.
LET GO OF THE BOAT, LAURIE!!
Monday, September 3, 2012
LET GO OF THE BOAT!!!
MORE THAN JUST A BOAT
It was a beautiful sunny day, a nice breeze was blowing on the day that I took my bundles to the beach.
The waves were calm. The boat just rocked slowly in the water.
It was still partly on the sand so I could easily toss my bags into the boat.
I had bags of various sizes.
The big bags were heavy, but they were the easiest to toss into the boat
I had been told that I should toss all my bags into the boat.
One by one, I surrendered them to the boat.
Darkness was setting in.
As the tide came in, the waves were getting bigger
The waves were calm. The boat just rocked slowly in the water.
It was still partly on the sand so I could easily toss my bags into the boat.
I had bags of various sizes.
The big bags were heavy, but they were the easiest to toss into the boat
I had been told that I should toss all my bags into the boat.
One by one, I surrendered them to the boat.
Darkness was setting in.
As the tide came in, the waves were getting bigger
And the boat was rocking more and more.
I needed to get all my bags in the boat.
By the time I got them all in, the boat was rocking heavily.
Up and down went the boat.
I had to hang onto the boat so it wouldn’t float away.
I stood there holding the boat which was getting harder and harder to do.
I thought maybe I should take back some of the bags.
But I couldn’t reach in and get them for the boat as rocking too hard.
The waves were getting rougher and I was just hanging on.
Hanging on to the boat containing all my baggage.
It was getting so hard
To keep my
Grip on
the boat.
Holding on to the all my worries, my troubles, my heartaches, my burdens, my sins,
everything that I needed to unload into the boat.
" But some of them need to come back out! I can deal with them myself!!" I told myself.
I just kept holding on to the boat
As the waves grew stronger.
Holding,
holding,
Holding.
“LET GO OF THE BOAT!” HE SAID.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
COMING SOON..YE'ALL COME ON BACK..PLEASE
I am going to write reviews for books and movies.. The books are childrens chapter books that I have had since I was a child. The movies are just random movies. I just saw one that I really enjoyed, and it had a message to it. It is listed under suspense and horror, but it is no where like either of these. The movie is entitled, "The Tall Man" About good and bad. With a twist. I highly recommend it. Please come back from time to time. I dont write on any kind of schedule, I just write when I have time, or the spirit moves me.
Friday, July 20, 2012
Just Repeating.
Some of the things I write, are things I learned in Sunday School or in Church. I am not trying to commit plagerizm by repeating what I have heard. I hope people dont mind me repeating things that I have learned.
I feel I have some kind of charactor flaw. People seem to like me ok, and then I talk to them and they avoid me. I dont get invited to Bible studies. I have offered my help, but I am not asked to help. I am so lonesome. Summer is better since my son is home. But most of the time, I am home alone and bored! Even though I have a thousand things to do. When I am home, I am just so depressed and I dont do anything. I guess my lot in life is to just be alone. BUT I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!! The people who took advantage of me, are the ones who everyone likes. I am just stating how I feel. You know, I used to be a very funny person. But somehow that person died.
The other day I was thinking how happy I was. I guess I need to focus on my blessings and just not think about that ails me. I am happy! Really!!
I feel I have some kind of charactor flaw. People seem to like me ok, and then I talk to them and they avoid me. I dont get invited to Bible studies. I have offered my help, but I am not asked to help. I am so lonesome. Summer is better since my son is home. But most of the time, I am home alone and bored! Even though I have a thousand things to do. When I am home, I am just so depressed and I dont do anything. I guess my lot in life is to just be alone. BUT I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!! The people who took advantage of me, are the ones who everyone likes. I am just stating how I feel. You know, I used to be a very funny person. But somehow that person died.
The other day I was thinking how happy I was. I guess I need to focus on my blessings and just not think about that ails me. I am happy! Really!!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
FORGIVE US OUT DEBTS AS WE FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS
"Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors" One way that we say the Lords Prayer. What is debt? Is it always financial? When we owe someone something. Can oweing someone something be a slave/master situation? It is a sin to be in debt or to owe anything to anyone. What if you are the debtor? What if you are the debtee? What does the Bible say about being in debt? What does the Bible say if someone owes you a debt? What if you are overwhelmed with debt and have very little money? What if your financial debt is part of your past or brought on by someone else. So many questions that I hope to find answers to in God's Word. What is God telling us??
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Sorry, But I Have To Vent
Pondering this: Why dont people just go and get a job? Instead of depending on others to house and feed them. I know there are not many jobs out there, but make an attempt. Flipping burgers is a job. Instead they have sex out of marriage and have babies, but don't work. Some expect others to just support them, others are doing the best they can and ask for nothing, and yet they suffer. Having sex is for the those who are married. This is God's rule. Some have sex with someone they just met. Sex is for love. How can a person know they love someone when they just met? Some have sex just so they can be in a rich family. They make excuses for their partner being a criminal. Some are just young and in love. Some are pot heads and drunks and then stop to become pregnant and think they are the best parent and know everything there is about parenting. How can people survive without money? How can they have babies with out money. I know there are times that people need help from others but it should be temparary. Not for the rest of their lives. Sometimes a person needs government help. Fine, but not forever! I dont understand this partying all the time, sex without love and producing babies...and never working a job, just living off of someone else. Children are supposed to grow up and go out on their own. Not still living with their grandparents and parents and be totally dependant on them. Then they wonder why their parents try to control them. they are still under their parent's roof!! I know sometimes this is the best for them. If they are working then that makes it better. They are doing the best they can until they can move out. Praise the Lord for parents who do allow their adult children move in with them while they can get back on their feet. As long as they are making an effort, all is fine. But to allow your childs partner to live in the house too, makes no sense to me. I can understand if the young people were married. Sometimes it is best to not get married because there is a baby involved. Having sex with someone you are not in love with is not right and then producing a baby out of this union is no reason to get married unless you love each other. Kudos though for not aborting. Abortion is the ultimate child abuse. If you dont want a baby, then give it to someone who does. To say you will abort again after having a baby just because you dont want a baby at that time, is insanity. I fear for the child you have already. If you would kill children, then whats to stop you from harming the one you have? Some are so ready to become parents and some are not. If married, then this shows you are ready for the responsibility of becoming a parent. Dont have sex until you are married. Your life will be so much better. Well yeah..Babies are a joy and the best thing on earth! It is hard to be a parent, but the love a child has for his parents is unconditional and so the parents need to have this overwhelming love for their child. I just worry about people who are not ready to have a baby, those who are druggies, and those who would have sex with anyone who lets them, and those who think everyone is going to house and feed them and they dont have to do a dang thing and be productive citizens. I think sex before marriage is the root of all evil. But you can be forgiven. Jesus is the answer. But you also have to change your ways and live to glorify and serve Jesus. Yes Christians are to serve others too, but this is not just giving and giving to someone who is not doing anything for themselves. Help them help themselves. Remember the fish story in the Bible. Teach a man to fish. Dont fish and give him your fish. Having him over for a fish meal is serving and loving. But to just give away your hard earned fish everyday is not love. Teaching him to fish is love. I am done.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Psalms 37
I have been reading Psalms 37 over and over. The message I get is to not fret and just be quiet. Focus on Jesus. After I pray over a situation and find peace, I will say more.
I am thinking of using my blog for reviews too. Book reviews and movie. Come back again..
I am thinking of using my blog for reviews too. Book reviews and movie. Come back again..
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
I have not written much lately. I keep getting messages from things people say and things I have read that I should not lead anyone astray. I dont want to say something that is wrong and have people follow me because of it. I want to say truths set by God. I certainly don't want to send someone down the wrong path..away from God. But if the truth hurts, so be it. If you love God you will follow Him and want to please him. You would want to do what he says to do. You would not want to do what he says to NOT do!! So I stopped writing for a while. But I love writing..so I wont stop.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
IN RESPONSE..
In Roman16:17-20)
17 Now I urge you, brethren, keep your eye on those who cause dissensions and hindrances contrary to the teaching which you learned, and turn away from them. 18 For such men are slaves, not of our Lord Christ but of their own appetites; and by their smooth and flattering speech they deceive the hearts of the unsuspecting. 19 For the report of your obedience has reached to all; therefore I am rejoicing over you, but I want you to be wise in what is good, and innocent in what is evil. 20 And the God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.s it says, "
The wolves are creeping in. In fact now that this Amendment one in North Carolina has passed, the wolves are being wolves! They are heads of congregations too. It is so saddening and bringing out anger. Satan loves anger and rage. Christians should not fight back. Those who voted against are very upset and they are being hateful saying that those who voted "for" are for hate and that we are teaching our children hate. Not true. Everything we Christians do is based on what God has taught us. Sin is not OK. Never! God has rules and we are to follow them. If you go against God's rules your life will have turmoil. Sex is for after marriage. If everyone did as God said, there would not be all this controversy with unmarried couples and their children born out of wedlock. They can turn their attitudes around and find this love that they are preaching that everyone is supposed to have. They can turn their eyes upon Jesus and he will take care of them.
Yes, God is all about Love. He sent Jesus to die for us out of love. But God is also vengful to those who dont accept His Son. He is also vengful to those who disobey his "rules"
This amendment has split up families and friends. They are just blind and dont understand. We can just pray as Jesus did when he was on the cross. "Forgive them for they know not what they do."
So how can we be angry with them? It is not their fault that they are chasing the wrong thing.
I just get so upset when they attack those who do understand. We know the truth. And if we did vote the wrong way, God can take a bad thing and turn it in to a good thing.
Monday, May 14, 2012
Manners
What has happened to this thing called Manners or Good ediquette?? When a person gets an invitation, they should RSVP. Respond Very Promply (I think) Another thing that is bugging me is why do people think they dont have to do anything and that everyone owes them. They are very self minded. They dont show happiness for anyone else but when good things happen to them they expect everyone to just flock and celebrate with them. They also dont say thank you for gifts they are given.
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