GOD IS ALWAYS TEACHING US

       Whenever you hear the same message, sermon, devotion topic, etc... over and over....it is God teaching us something we need to learn, or relearn or something we need to work on. 
       I have been hearing the same topic to be KIND to others.  Today, I read Titus 3 and once again, it told me to be kind.  We may be the only Bible that other's "read".  We need to set a Godly example with our lives.  Anger does not set a good example.  I get so upset (and angry) because people don't act like they are supposed to.  Self mindedness...treating other badly.  But getting angry only caused me ulcers and anxiety and panic attacks.   All we can do is state facts to others in a loving way.  Tell them what the Bible says.  Share our story to help others.  If they don't listen, it is not us they are rejecting, they are rejecting God.  The Bible says to just brush the dust off our shoes and move on.  The Bible also says to keep doing good.  Don't cause a harm for a harm.  Just keep on being kind.  Sometimes we just have to be silent and let God deal with a hurt that someone has caused on us.  We are also to tell God about how we feel. Pray pray pray.  Don't talk to others and bad mouth someone who has cause harm or sinned, that is gossup.   These are all things that I personally need to work on.  I feel that if I don't get angry or let someone know they have done wrong, then are getting away with hurting me.  It's not fair.  But this is not God's way.   Be kind and keep doing good.  That's God's way. 

Titus

3; Remind the people to be subject to rulers and authorities, to be obedient, to be ready to do whatever is good, ² to slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and always to be gentle toward everyone.

³ At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. ⁴ But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, ⁵ he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, ⁶ whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, ⁷ so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. ⁸ This is a trustworthy saying. And I want you to stress these things, so that those who have trusted in God may be careful to devote themselves to doing what is good. These things are excellent and profitable for everyone.
⁹ But avoid foolish controversies and genealogies and arguments and quarrels about the law, because these are unprofitable and useless. ¹⁰ Warn a divisive person once, and then warn them a second time. After that, have nothing to do with them. ¹¹ You may be sure that such people are warped and sinful; they are self-condemned.

I am starting to read a book and decided to comment on what I read.  My preachers wife gave me the book to read and I thought about writing to her and sharing deep personal stuff as I read.  But decided to just write on my blog and maybe share with  her later.   People are always giving me books to read.  It makes me feel like something is wrong with me.  I seem depressed or confused.  I am not depressed.  I over think.  I think a lot.  The book I have been given this time by my pastor's wife is on Self Talk.  I am a happy person.  Really I am, but I have voiced that I am ashamed of how I used to be.  My past.  I was very shy as a child, but I was also kind of mean to my friends.  I was boy crazy.  People have not seemed to like me.  But there was a time, I was very funny and the life of the party.  People liked me.  I lied a lot.   I like myself now.  I think I am smart.  I am quiet because I am not good at talking.  I feel people don't care what I have to say. When I am talking, people cut me off.  It happens over and over.   So I write. My husband talks all the time.  People love him.  He lies.  He is a narcissist.  And people love him!!  I am a good person and people don't like me.  Ok..some of this might be my self talk.  So I will continue to read the book and share my thoughts.  

Repeating, I am a happy person.  I love my Lord, Jesus Christ.  I am a good mother.  I find beauty in God's creations.  Nature...trees and clouds.  Animals, children, people.  I love people.  I want them to like me.  My children don't come to see me because my husband has been hurtful to them.  He is the step dad.  I could go into another long speech about all of this.  But I don't want to think about it right now.  I do know that I am not happy in my marriage.  It is hard being married to a Narcissist.  I feel trapped.  Stuck.  Marriage is a life commitment.  I did marry him.  I do worry about what other people think of me.  So maybe in her wisdom, my pastor's wife saw something that she thinks will benefit me from this book.  Even though the Bible is the ultimate help/how to love your life, live your life.  God's way.  Teaching us about Jesus and how we can be like him and how to grow and handle all situations we find in our lives.  So I will read and comment.  Stay tuned........to be continued.

 

I am starting to read a book and decided to comment on what I read.  My preachers wife gave me the book to read and I thought about writing to her and sharing deep personal stuff as I read.  But decided to just write on my blog and maybe share with  her later.   People are always giving me books to read.  It makes me feel like something is wrong with me.  I seem depressed or confused.  I am not depressed.  I over think.  I think a lot.  The book I have been given this time by my pastor's wife is on Self Talk.  I am a happy person.  Really I am, but I have voiced that I am ashamed of how I used to be.  My past.  I was very shy as a child, but I was also kind of mean to my friends.  I was boy crazy.  People have not seemed to like me.  But there was a time, I was very funny and the life of the party.  People liked me.  I lied a lot.   I like myself now.  I think I am smart.  I am quiet because I am not good at talking.  I feel people don't care what I have to say. When I am talking, people cut me off.  It happens over and over.   So I write. My husband talks all the time.  People love him.  He lies.  He is a narcissist.  And people love him!!  I am a good person and people don't like me.  Ok..some of this might be my self talk.  So I will continue to read the book and share my thoughts.  

Repeating, I am a happy person.  I love my Lord, Jesus Christ.  I am a good mother.  I find beauty in God's creations.  Nature...trees and clouds.  Animals, children, people.  I love people.  I want them to like me.  My children don't come to see me because my husband has been hurtful to them.  He is the step dad.  I could go into another long speech about all of this.  But I don't want to think about it right now.  I do know that I am not happy in my marriage.  It is hard being married to a Narcissist.  I feel trapped.  Stuck.  Marriage is a life commitment.  I did marry him.  I do worry about what other people think of me.  So maybe in her wisdom, my pastor's wife saw something that she thinks will benefit me from this book.  Even though the Bible is the ultimate help/how to love your life, live your life.  God's way.  Teaching us about Jesus and how we can be like him and how to grow and handle all situations we find in our lives.  So I will read and comment.  Stay tuned........to be continued.

 

Marriage and Narcissism

        It has been awhile but I am back.  I have been praying.  I have been researching.  I am married to a Narcisist and don't know how to handle it.  The world says to run...get away.  But I don't know if that is what God would have me to do.  I need help. 

ARE THEY TOO FAR GONE? 

            Around 22 years ago I went to a bar ...alone...and there was this really cute man sitting near me.  I ended up taking him to his house.  But first we talked about our families.  He had two little boys, but wasn't married.  I had a whole family...married with children.  He invited me in and then forced sex on me.  Rape is what they call it.  I didn't know.  I felt violated.  I went home and showered and scrubbed all areas of my body.  He was a low life.  I felt sorry for his kids.  My mistake was going to a bar and being nice to give this handsome man a ride home.  I am just too nice. 
            Now here it is 22 years later and I am a facebook addict.  This man has a facebook page.  From what I can tell he is a drunk.  His life involves drinking all day until he passes out or ends up in the hospital.  Sad.  I checked on his sons.  Both in their early 20s.  23 and 24.  Both of their lives are employment where ever they can get it.  Their jobs last about two weeks.  They get paid well and just blow it.  They both have been in and out of jail, prison, rehab, court, and the hospital for drug overdosing. A different sex partner almost weekly.    I feel they are beyond hope.  But are they?  Jesus can turn people around and heal them.  Is there a point when Jesus will just walk away?  These two young men are so young to be in this kind of lifestyle.  I pray they will someday find Jesus and look to him for a life changing. 

My Life

    I love reading and in depth studies of the Bible.  I have learned so much from pastors such as Phil Spry, Bill Dinwiddie and Dan Rutherford.  I love that I have learn what is right and what is wrong in this world from God's Word.  What He says is truth.  The world tries to twist things so that sin is not sin.  Bible says to not conform to the world.  I pray that one day they will understand the Bible and see that sin is sin.  That they in the world will see that Jesus is the only way to Heaven.  That Hell is real.  Until then, all I can do is pray for the lost.  Not argue with them or get angry.  In the Bible God says that he will let the evil perish in their sins. 
    I was married to a very rough man.  He was mean at times and verbally abusive.  We had some bad times and we had some very good times.  He lost his life to an addiction to Crack.  That last year was a hard one.  The last month was a very hard one as he was so sick with heart failure...and he didn't understand why.  He did everything the doctors told him...I wanted to yell, "YOU ARE STILL SMOKING THAT CRACK!!"  In the end was he doing it to help his pain?  It was a vicious circle.  When he passed away, it was just me and my boys.  I was a single mother.  I was free!  I was happy...so happy.  Not happy that my husband had died.  I wanted him to get better and come back home and we continue in a happy life.  But God took him out of that marriage.  God had his reasons.  I am thankful that he is not here now with all the politics and hate that is going on.  Also that he is not here to deal with his sister and her children and the torment they put on his parents. 
     I read in the Bible that young widows should remarry.  The only reason I should have remarried was to get rid of that whorish behavior.  I was for a time after my husband died.  That part I was not happy about.  I was so happy that life was just me and my  children.  I was soooo sooo happy.  Why then did I get married again?
    Here  I am seven plus years later and I am so unhappy.  I feel stuck.  I feel chained.  I am not free.  I think my husband is a narcissist.  He lies.   Everything I read about a narcissistic  relationship, is us.  I just want to be happy.  I should feel joy that I belong to my Lord, Jesus Christ.  But I feel imprisioned.  I feel no one cares about what I have to say.  I feel ignored a lot of the time.  Oh well, Jesus loves me.  That is all that matters really. 

Truth

Its not up to us to judge. We should speak the truth and if people don't listen, walk away. God will judge them for not following HIS rules. There are so many sins in this world that God lists in the Bible. A lot of them are worldly and wont get you into Heaven. Heaven is where Jesus is. Heaven is eternal. Not everyone will get to go to Heaven. Some will go to the fire for eternity.

Needing To Think.

      I have not been on for quite some time.  I do love to write and I think of things to write about all the time.  But I have been lazy and depressed and so I am not getting the things done that I want to get done.  There is even a Bible verse about this.   There has been some things that are troubling me.  Behaviors of Christians.  There is a new Christianity movement out there where we treat everyone with love and acceptance.  But this is not scriptural.  We are to speak the truth to other in love.  If they argue or disagree.  Just walk away.  Brush the dirt off of your shoes and go.  They are rejecting God's word, not you.    There are also those who are very bold and make accusations towards others..with arrogance.  I don't think this is right either.  Then there are those who talk the talk, read their Bibles daily, but treat people with malice and anger.  When it is mentioned to them that they do this, they are nice for a short time and then go back to being verbally foul mouthed angry people.  But to their church friends, they are the perfect Christian and the accuser is just a hot head. 

I am going to search scripture and study on how we are be witnesses for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  Jesus died on the cross for our sins.  I believe that the relationship between a believer and Jesus is a private one.  We are to live quiet lives and by our example..and our loving words of scripture, others will see Christ in us.  They will see our light.  I want to be a candle for Christ.  I just think aggression and arrogance are not how to tell people about Jesus. 

I am not perfect.  I have anger issues against those who don't follow the rules.  Any rules or laws.  I do have fits of anger, but I am so ashamed of my anger and I repent.  I know God forgives me.  I just don't understand people who hurt others and don't ask for forgiveness.  They think they have done nothing wrong.  Self minded and narccistic . 

More Later. 

SERVING OR ENABLING

      I  am taking a break from my studies to write a short blog on what I am learning and relearning.  My love is writing, but there is so much that I want to write down.  I also love studying the Bible.  This is my motivation to pass on what I learn.  I have come to realize there is a fine line between serving others as he Bible tells to do (which Jesus was the perfect example) and enabling.  Enabling has to do with sin.  An enabler helps a sinner to continue in their sin.  They may feel they are doing it out of love, but it is not love to help someone continue in their sinful life.  I will write more on this later after I do a thorough research on the two topics. 

      Today I want to talk about Matthew 6:21 "Your heart will be where your treasure is"   This verse comes up a lot when I research clutter and hoarding.  hoarding is sinful.  Hanging on to stuff is sin.  Some say it is a mental illness.  Perhaps for some it is.  But for others, it is just worshiping your belongings.  We don't need a lot of belongs.  We are to just have what we need in life.  Items that we absolutely love are those things that we should keep if they are not things we need in life.  Everything EVERYTHING! that we have should be for the glory of God or to glorify God.  If you are trying to declutter, ask yourself, "Does it Glorify God?" If not, toss it, sell it or donate it.  A gift or a souvenir can be something that glorifies God because it is a memory of a loved one or a special time in our lives that we consider a blessing from God. 

     We should work hard for what we need in life.  Work.  Serving others is a type of work.  Working in pursuit of things that leave us empty and broken inside is not what God wants us to do.  We should be weary doing what is good in God's eyes at the end of the day so that we can have a good rest.  The Bible does say to not grow weary doing good.  This means to not give up.  Keep doing good and God will bless you in his time.  Keep fighting the fight.  Go for the reward which is Heaven.  Life is all about Jesus and our reward is Heaven.  Jesus is our path to Heaven. 

     I am so sickened by selfish people.  Pursuing what they want.  Hurting others who get in their way.  They grow weary pursuing things that never satisfy.  They are never satisfied.  They want more and more.  They want it better next time.  A higher high you might say.  Self and possessions can be sinful. 

     Enabling helps another with their selfish wants.  Serving others is helping them with what they need in life to survive.  Serving is love motivated.  Enabling is not..by no means.  If the Bible says something is a sin, condoning or defending the sin is not love.  That is where hate come in.  Love tries to stop the sin.  Hate allows the sin to continue. 

    Love is not angry or hateful.  Love speaks the truth.  The truth is God's words.  If someone wont listen when you speak the truth, walk away.  Don't take it personally.  Brush the dirt off your shoes as they did in the Bible and walk away.  Pray for them.  Pray for those who hurt you.  Pray for your enemies!!  Pray for the lost. 

Read your Bible, talk to God and pray for others.  Learn about Jesus.  Serve others. 

EASTER 2013

         It is Easter 2013 and for some reason this Easter is bringing on spiritual battles more so than in the past.  I know that satan (his name does not deserve to be capitalized)  is working his hardest during this time of year.  So many arguments and disagreements going on.  And it is not between Christians and non Christians.  It is between Christians! 

    Easter is the celebration of the death of Jesus and His resurrection.  Jesus died for our sins.  This was God's plan.  Jesus rose from the dead and is making a place for us.  He will come again.  If you believe in Jesus you will live in eternity (Heaven) with him. 

    Here a few instructions from the Bible:
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1 John 2:4     

Whoever says “I know him” but does not keep his commandments is a liar, and the truth is not in him,

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    No sin is worse than another, sin is sin.  We all sin and should ask for forgiveness and repent (stop it) 


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John 14:6         
Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

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      The only way to God and Heaven is to believe in Jesus and in his life.  He set the example of how we should live.  We should set an example for those who don't know Jesus as their personal saviour.  Getting to know Jesus is as easy as reading the Bible and praying.  The whole Bible is relivant. 

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2 Timothy 3:16 ESV     

All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness,

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1 Peter 4:10-11 

As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace: whoever speaks, as one who speaks oracles of God; whoever serves, as one who serves by the strength that God supplies—in order that in everything God may be glorified through Jesus Christ. To him belong glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

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Serve others as Jesus served.  He is our example. The saying, "What would Jesus do?" is a good mindset.

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DO NOT ARGUE , JUST STATE THE TRUTH AND BE KIND.

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John 8:32
"And you will know the truth and the truth will set you free"
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2 Timothy 2:23-24 ESV    

Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil,

Philippians 2:14 ESV    

Do all things without grumbling or questioning,

Romans 12:19 ESV    

Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.”

Proverbs 15:1 ESV    

A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

Titus 3:1-2 ESV    

Remind them to be submissive to rulers and authorities, to be obedient, to be ready for every good work, to speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people.

Romans 14:19 ESV    

So then let us pursue what makes for peace and for mutual upbuilding.

1 Corinthians 13:1-13 ESV    

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ...

1 Peter 2:21 ESV /     

For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps.        .

 5:22-23        

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law

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Don't argue, Don't Judge, Be kind, State the truth and just walk away.  God will handle the rest. 

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JUST WALK AWAY!!  Don't hang around and argue or get angy or upset. 

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And if anyone will not receive you or listen to your words, shake off the dust from your feet when you leave that house or town.

Mark 6:11        

And if any place will not receive you and they will not listen to you, when you leave, shake off the dust that is on your feet as a testimony against them.”

Luke 9:5 ESV    

And wherever they do not receive you, when you leave that town shake off the dust from your feet as a testimony against them.”

Acts 13:51        

But they shook off the dust from their feet against them

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BEING ANGRY AND HATEFUL IS WRONG.  HANDLE DISAGREEMENTS GOD'S WAY.

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Ephesians 4:31-32        

Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

       

James 1:19-20 ESV / 13 helpful votes

Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God.

Luke 10:25-28 ESV /      behold, a lawyer stood up to put him to the test, saying, “Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?” He said to him, “What is written in the Law? How do you read it?” And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.” And he said to him, “You have answered correctly; do this, and you will live.”

Proverbs 15:1 ESV

A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.

Matthew 7:12     

“So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them, for this is the Law and the Prophets.

Psalm 37:8-9          

Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil. For the evildoers shall be cut off, but those who wait for the Lord shall inherit the land.

Galatians 5:19-21         

Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.        

Colossians 3:7-8          

In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.

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Read the Bible and follow the instructions of our God. 

 

Overwhelming : (

Well..I have so much I want to write about.  It is the time of year of joy and holidays.  Peace and Love.  Family.  Hmmm SUPPOSED TO BE THAT WAY!  

Today I look around and see sad things.  I am trying to find the positive.  I am looking forward a new Grandson.  This is very joyous!  Praises that my husband has a job..but work is very slow now thanks to Sandy.  Yes still slow. 

I sometimes just write to "vent".  Writing is theraputic.  I also pray and God gives me Peace. 

I dont talk much.  Out of fear people will run away from me or will argue with me.  I dont like conflict at all.  THIS is a weakness of mine.  I also dont say anything sometimes because what will come out of my mouth will be anger.  I dont have the ability to speak "in love" 
My favorite saying of all is "If you can't say something nice , dont say nothing at all"  (THUMPER)

 

 I thought the politcal stuff would stop after the election. The negativity is making me sick!! Where is the love? But I cant say anything negative to anyone or speak my mind because I get attacked like a lion pouncing to tear my mouth up.  

The elections are over and I thought all the hate would stop.  But it continues.  Christians are being hateful about Obama.  Pray for the man!  He is the head of our country.  But God is the head of the world.  God is control!  Stop complaining!  Look to our God and Saviour.  HE loves us very much.  Show him you love HIM too.  Sing Praises!  

 

A woman is so unhappy in her marriage so she feels it is  ok to have an affair.  What about her children?  She is neglecting them.  If she hates her husband that much, why does she leave her children in his care 98% of the time?  He is doing an awesome job of being a father to his children.  This man is not well, but does the best he can.  He loves his wife so very much and tries so hard to please her.  He is a truly a gentle soul.  Yes he has had his times of rage and has hurt her physically and emotionally.  I UNDERSTAND!  MORE THAN SHE KNOWS..I UNDERSTAND!  I too have made the wrong choises to deal with my hurt.  Circumstances are different..simular yet different.  God used mine to bring me closer to him.  He forgave me and he was patient.  Maybe I should be patient with this woman.  It breaks my heart though that she is "so happy" now and justifies her behavior....but she is blind to the fact that she is neglecting her husband and children.  She is focused on herself.  Please God get her focus back on YOU.   Bring her back to you Lord. 

I get so upset by evil people living evil lives and thinking everyone owes them something.  They depend on others to GIVE them what they NEED.  They spend their money on what they WANT.     When deeds of kindness are done for them, they are ungrateful.  So why would anyone want to continue doing nice things for them?  Is this the wrong attitude? 
How can people live a happy life getting drunk, getting high, having sex with man after man?   I dont get it!!   Then they complain when life is hard.  I want to scream.....YOU DONT HAVE JESUS IN YOUR LIFE!!!"   

I try to be a loving example of Christ's love.  I know the bible says to not grow weary doing good.   But my heart is broken for people not living for Christ. 

I cry over all the people mentioned in this blog.  I pray for all of them.  

I need to put them in the boat...and let go of the boat. 

LET GO OF THE BOAT, LAURIE!!

LET GO OF THE BOAT!!!

MORE THAN JUST A BOAT

It was a beautiful sunny day, a nice breeze was blowing on the day that I took my bundles to the beach.

The waves were calm. The boat just rocked slowly in the water.
It was still partly on the sand so I could easily toss my bags into the boat.
I had bags of various sizes.

The big bags were heavy, but they were the easiest to toss into the boat

I had been told that I should toss all my bags into the boat.

One by one, I surrendered them to the boat.
Darkness was setting in.
As the tide came in, the waves were getting bigger

And the boat was rocking more and more.
I needed to get all my bags in the boat.
By the time I got them all in, the boat was rocking heavily.
Up and down went the boat.

I had to hang onto the boat so it wouldn’t float away.
I stood there holding the boat which was getting harder and harder to do.

I thought maybe I should take back some of the bags.

But I couldn’t reach in and get them for the boat as rocking too hard.
The waves were getting rougher and I was just hanging on.

Hanging on to the boat containing all my baggage.
It was getting so hard

To keep my

Grip on

the boat.




Holding on to the all my worries, my troubles, my heartaches, my burdens, my sins,

everything that I needed to unload into the boat.
" But some of them need to come back out! I can deal with them myself!!" I told myself.

I just kept holding on to the boat

As the waves grew stronger.

Holding,
holding,

Holding.



“LET GO OF THE BOAT!” HE SAID.

 

COMING SOON..YE'ALL COME ON BACK..PLEASE

 I am going to write reviews for books and movies..  The books are childrens chapter books that I have had since I was a child.  The movies are just random movies.  I just saw one that I really enjoyed, and it had a message to it.  It is listed under suspense and horror, but it is no where like either of these.  The movie is entitled, "The Tall Man"   About good and bad.  With a twist.  I highly recommend it.  Please come back from time to time.  I dont write on any kind of schedule, I just write when I have time, or the spirit moves me. 

Just Repeating.

Some of the things I write, are things I learned in Sunday School or in Church.  I am not trying to commit plagerizm by repeating what I have heard.  I hope people dont mind me repeating things that I have learned.  

I feel I have some kind of charactor flaw.  People seem to like me ok, and then I talk to them and they avoid me. I dont get invited to Bible studies.  I have offered my help, but I am not asked to help.  I am so lonesome.  Summer is better since my son is home.  But most of the time, I am home alone and bored!  Even though I have a thousand things to do.  When I am home, I am just so depressed and I dont do anything.  I guess my lot in life is to just be alone.  BUT I AM A PEOPLE PERSON!!   The people who took advantage of me, are the ones who everyone likes.  I am just stating how I feel.  You know, I used to be a very funny person.  But somehow that person died.  

The other day I was thinking how happy I was.  I guess I need to focus on my blessings and just not think about that ails me.  I am happy!  Really!! 

FORGIVE US OUT DEBTS AS WE FORGIVE OUR DEBTORS

 "Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors"  One way that we say the Lords Prayer.  What is debt?  Is it always financial?  When we owe someone something.  Can oweing someone something be a slave/master situation?  It is a sin to be in debt or to owe anything to anyone.  What if you are the debtor?  What if you are the debtee?  What does the Bible say about being in debt?  What does the Bible say if someone owes you a debt?  What if you are overwhelmed with debt and have very little money?  What if your financial debt is part of your past or brought on by someone else.  So many questions that I hope to find answers to in God's Word.  What is God telling us??

Sorry, But I Have To Vent

Pondering this: Why dont people just go and get a job?  Instead of depending on others to house and feed them.  I know there are not many jobs out there, but make an attempt.  Flipping burgers is a job.   Instead they have sex out of marriage and have babies, but don't work.  Some expect others to just support them, others are doing the best they can and ask for nothing, and yet they suffer.  Having sex is for the those who are married. This is God's rule.   Some have sex with someone they just met.  Sex is for love.  How can a person know they love someone when they just met?   Some have sex just so they can be in a rich family.  They make excuses for their partner being a criminal.   Some are just young and in love.  Some are pot heads and drunks and then stop to become pregnant and think they are the best parent and know everything there is about parenting.  How can people survive without money?  How can they have babies with out money.  I know there are times that people need help from others but it should be temparary.  Not for the rest of their lives.  Sometimes a person needs government help.  Fine, but not forever!  I dont understand this partying all the time, sex without love and producing babies...and never working a job, just living off of someone else.  Children are supposed to grow up and go out on their own.  Not still living with their grandparents and parents and be totally dependant on them.  Then they wonder why their parents try to control them.  they are still under their parent's roof!!   I know sometimes this is the best for them.  If they are working then that makes it better.  They are doing the best they can until they can move out.  Praise the Lord for parents who do allow their adult children move in with them while they can get back on their feet.  As long as they are making an effort, all is fine.  But to allow your childs partner to live in the house too, makes no sense to me.  I can understand if the young people were married.   Sometimes it is best to not get married because there is a baby involved.  Having sex with someone you are not in love with is not right and then producing a baby out of this union is no reason to get married unless you love each other.  Kudos though for not aborting.  Abortion is the ultimate child abuse.   If you dont want a baby, then give it to someone who does.  To say you will abort again after having a baby just because you dont want a baby at that time, is insanity.  I fear for the child you have already.  If you would kill children, then whats to stop you from harming the one you have?    Some are so ready to become parents and some are not.  If married, then this shows you are ready for the responsibility of becoming a parent.  Dont have sex until you are married.  Your life will be so much better.  Well yeah..Babies are a joy and the best thing on earth!  It is hard to be a parent, but the love a child has for his parents is unconditional and so the parents need to have this overwhelming love for their child.  I just worry about people who are not ready to have  a baby, those who are druggies, and those who would have sex with anyone who lets them, and those who think everyone is going to house and feed them and they dont have to do a dang thing and be productive citizens.  I think sex before marriage is the root of all evil.  But you can be forgiven.  Jesus is the answer.  But you also have to change your ways and live to glorify and serve Jesus.  Yes Christians are to serve others too, but this is not just giving and giving to someone who is not doing anything for themselves.  Help them help themselves.  Remember the fish story in the Bible.  Teach a man to fish.  Dont fish and give him your fish.  Having him over for a fish meal is serving and loving.  But to just give away your hard earned fish everyday is not love.  Teaching him to fish is love.   I am done.

Psalms 37

I have been reading Psalms 37 over and over.  The message I get is to not fret and just be quiet.  Focus on Jesus.  After I pray over a situation and find peace, I will say more. 

I am thinking of using my blog for reviews too.  Book reviews and movie.  Come back again..

I have not written much lately.  I keep getting messages from things people say and things I have read that I should not lead anyone astray.  I dont want to say something that is wrong and have people follow me because of it.  I want to say truths set by God.  I certainly don't want to send someone down the wrong path..away from God.  But if the truth hurts, so be it.  If you love God you will follow Him and want to please him.  You would want to do what he says to do.  You would not want to do what he says to NOT do!!  So I stopped writing for a while.   But I love writing..so I wont stop. 

IN RESPONSE..

 In Roman16:17-20)

17 Now I urge you, brethren, keep your eye on those who cause dissensions and hindrances contrary to the teaching which you learned, and turn away from them. 18 For such men are slaves, not of our Lord Christ but of their own appetites; and by their smooth and flattering speech they deceive the hearts of the unsuspecting. 19 For the report of your obedience has reached to all; therefore I am rejoicing over you, but I want you to be wise in what is good, and innocent in what is evil. 20 And the God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet. The grace of our Lord Jesus be with you.s it says, "

The wolves are creeping in.  In fact now that this Amendment one in North Carolina has passed, the wolves are being wolves!  They are heads of congregations too.  It is so saddening and bringing out anger.  Satan loves anger and rage.  Christians should not fight back.  Those who voted against are very upset and they are being hateful saying that those who voted "for" are for hate and that we are teaching our children hate.  Not true.  Everything we Christians do is based on what God has taught us.  Sin is not OK.  Never!  God has rules and we are to follow them.  If you go against God's rules your life will have turmoil.  Sex is for after marriage.  If everyone did as God said, there would not be all this controversy with unmarried couples and their children born out of wedlock.  They can turn their attitudes around and find this love that they are preaching that everyone is supposed to have.  They can turn their eyes upon Jesus and he will take care of them. 

Yes, God is all about Love.  He sent Jesus to die for us out of love.  But God is also vengful to those who dont accept His Son.  He is also vengful to those who disobey his "rules" 

This amendment has split up families and friends.    They are just blind and dont understand.  We can just pray as Jesus did when he was on the cross.  "Forgive them for they know not what they do." 

So how can we be angry with them?  It is not their fault that they are chasing the wrong thing. 

I just get so upset when they attack those who do understand.  We know the truth.  And if we did vote the wrong way, God can take a bad thing and turn it in to a good thing. 

Manners

What has happened to this thing called Manners or Good ediquette??  When a person gets an invitation, they should RSVP.  Respond Very Promply (I think)    Another thing that is bugging me is why do people think they dont have to do anything and that everyone owes them.  They are very self minded.  They dont show happiness for anyone else but when good things happen to them they expect everyone to just flock and celebrate with them.  They also dont say thank you for gifts they are given.