Overwhelming : (

Well..I have so much I want to write about.  It is the time of year of joy and holidays.  Peace and Love.  Family.  Hmmm SUPPOSED TO BE THAT WAY!  

Today I look around and see sad things.  I am trying to find the positive.  I am looking forward a new Grandson.  This is very joyous!  Praises that my husband has a job..but work is very slow now thanks to Sandy.  Yes still slow. 

I sometimes just write to "vent".  Writing is theraputic.  I also pray and God gives me Peace. 

I dont talk much.  Out of fear people will run away from me or will argue with me.  I dont like conflict at all.  THIS is a weakness of mine.  I also dont say anything sometimes because what will come out of my mouth will be anger.  I dont have the ability to speak "in love" 
My favorite saying of all is "If you can't say something nice , dont say nothing at all"  (THUMPER)

 

 I thought the politcal stuff would stop after the election. The negativity is making me sick!! Where is the love? But I cant say anything negative to anyone or speak my mind because I get attacked like a lion pouncing to tear my mouth up.  

The elections are over and I thought all the hate would stop.  But it continues.  Christians are being hateful about Obama.  Pray for the man!  He is the head of our country.  But God is the head of the world.  God is control!  Stop complaining!  Look to our God and Saviour.  HE loves us very much.  Show him you love HIM too.  Sing Praises!  

 

A woman is so unhappy in her marriage so she feels it is  ok to have an affair.  What about her children?  She is neglecting them.  If she hates her husband that much, why does she leave her children in his care 98% of the time?  He is doing an awesome job of being a father to his children.  This man is not well, but does the best he can.  He loves his wife so very much and tries so hard to please her.  He is a truly a gentle soul.  Yes he has had his times of rage and has hurt her physically and emotionally.  I UNDERSTAND!  MORE THAN SHE KNOWS..I UNDERSTAND!  I too have made the wrong choises to deal with my hurt.  Circumstances are different..simular yet different.  God used mine to bring me closer to him.  He forgave me and he was patient.  Maybe I should be patient with this woman.  It breaks my heart though that she is "so happy" now and justifies her behavior....but she is blind to the fact that she is neglecting her husband and children.  She is focused on herself.  Please God get her focus back on YOU.   Bring her back to you Lord. 

I get so upset by evil people living evil lives and thinking everyone owes them something.  They depend on others to GIVE them what they NEED.  They spend their money on what they WANT.     When deeds of kindness are done for them, they are ungrateful.  So why would anyone want to continue doing nice things for them?  Is this the wrong attitude? 
How can people live a happy life getting drunk, getting high, having sex with man after man?   I dont get it!!   Then they complain when life is hard.  I want to scream.....YOU DONT HAVE JESUS IN YOUR LIFE!!!"   

I try to be a loving example of Christ's love.  I know the bible says to not grow weary doing good.   But my heart is broken for people not living for Christ. 

I cry over all the people mentioned in this blog.  I pray for all of them.  

I need to put them in the boat...and let go of the boat. 

LET GO OF THE BOAT, LAURIE!!

Pot..Yeah, THAT'S THE WAY TO LIVE!

The Bible says that if a man doesn't work, he wont eat.  Meaning a man should work if he wants God to provide food for him.  This is why we say a blessing before we eat, thanking God for the food.  A man should not make his wife (or in todays world..his girlfriend, mother of his children) go out and work while he stays home and smokes pot or drinks.  Leaving a child in the care of a person like this is just sinful.  I know someone who works and leaves her baby with her pot smoking boyfriend.  He doesn't want to work...manual labor is just too hard.  Now she is talking about getting a second job.  Why did she have a child if she wants to be away from it all the time.  Thank the Lord she didn't abort like she did in the past.  This couple complains they dont have any money to pay the electric or the rent.  But they can buy pot, cigarettes and alcohol.  Hmmm 
Their excuse for him not working...he has to babysit.  SHE should be home with the child and HE go to work.  That is God's way.  I know in these economic times a man may be out of a job.  If he is looking though, at least he is "working" at finding employment.  Not just being lazy and getting high.  . 

PETE AND REPEAT

 I know that I repeat a lot in my blogs.  I am getting older so forgive me please.  I am in a Bible study on friendship.  I love learning more about Jesus and His example of friendship. 

I used to be the "fun" friend.  Growing up, I was the "life of the party" and made people laugh.  Somehow somewhere this person "died"  I blame it on emotional abuse.  I was scared to be myself for many years.  I want to be a fun friend.  I have lost the ability to make friends.  I am desparate to learn how to do this again.  But I am blessed with people I consiter friends.  I guess I try to hard to get everyone to like me and want to be around me.  I try to hard to find a "best" friend.  I have a best friend.  She has been my best friend since I was 9.  But sadly she lives in another state.  I have to admit..I DO have friends.  But I feel I am not the kind of friend I want to be.  I had a life lesson this past week.  I will talk about this later.   It has to do with conflict and someone still being my "friend" even though I behaved badly.  She thought nothing of it. 

To come later, I will write on my DIRTY LAUNDRY and how God loves and forgives me.  He sent his son to die for me!  He sent his son to die for you too!! 

I DO MULTIPLE TOPICS

    I have read many blogs and have noticed that most write on a single topic.  Their blogs flow with each blog they write.  They connect. 

Me, well, I do multiple topics.  I write on what God is teaching me. I write on what I want to teach others.  I write poetry.  I write reviews on books and movies.  In the future, I am going to write on abortion recovery.  I was trained to be able to lead a support group or on one on support for abortion recovery.  I loved doing this, so now I will just include abortion recovery from time to time.   I will also write on events in my personal life.  So, you can see that I don't stick to one topic each time I write.  I also write reviews for Traveladvisor.  This is a site to write reviews on tourism and traveling for many different things such as hotels, sights, restraunts, etc. 

I just watched a movie entitled, "Helen".  About a woman who was very depressed. It was kind of slow moving.  She ended up being treated with electro shock.  This seemed to help her the best, even though she lost part of her memory.  Prior therapies did not work for her.  It was educational as to showing what severe depression is like for those who suffer with it.   But the movie was kind of boring in parts. 

Thanks for reading and please come back again. 

SO MANY DIFFERENCES

I have visited many different churches throughout my lifetime.  Most do things the same,  but in different ways.  I feel that whatever a church does to worship and honor God is OK.  What matter the most is if they believe that God sent his son , born from a virgin, to die on the cross and be risen.  Jesus is his son and Mary is Jesus' mother.  Also what is important is that the church believes the whole Bible is true and that it is God's word.  I just wanted to write about some of the differences I has seen.  None of them are wrong in my opinion.

Offering: Some churches take offering at the end of the service, some at the very beginning, some in the middle and some just have a box where you deposit your offering on your way in or on your way out. 

Communion: I have been to many churches who pass the cup just the same way they pass the offering plate and the whole church drinks at the same time.  Then they repeat with the body of Christ.  For the body of Christ, there have been oyster crackers, little unleavened bread or something else.  I have also had both the cup and bread passed at the same time and you just take communion on your own.  I have been to churches where you walk to the front for communion.  One time everyone just tore off a piece of bread from a large uncut loaf.  Some have little or large disc's.  As for the blood of Christ (the cup) some churches  use grape juice or real wine.  I was surprised at I took communion at one church and the cup had real wine in it.  Children also get the same cup of real wine.  Some churches use koolaide. 

Music:  Very formal large choirs, or very casual choirs.  Some churches have a band and some just a piano.  Huge organs are found at some churches. 

Big pulpit's or little ones.  Some pastors just stand before the parisheners and talk without a microphone.  Even microphones are
different. 

I enjoy the differences. 

LET GO OF THE BOAT!!!

MORE THAN JUST A BOAT

It was a beautiful sunny day, a nice breeze was blowing on the day that I took my bundles to the beach.

The waves were calm. The boat just rocked slowly in the water.
It was still partly on the sand so I could easily toss my bags into the boat.
I had bags of various sizes.

The big bags were heavy, but they were the easiest to toss into the boat

I had been told that I should toss all my bags into the boat.

One by one, I surrendered them to the boat.
Darkness was setting in.
As the tide came in, the waves were getting bigger

And the boat was rocking more and more.
I needed to get all my bags in the boat.
By the time I got them all in, the boat was rocking heavily.
Up and down went the boat.

I had to hang onto the boat so it wouldn’t float away.
I stood there holding the boat which was getting harder and harder to do.

I thought maybe I should take back some of the bags.

But I couldn’t reach in and get them for the boat as rocking too hard.
The waves were getting rougher and I was just hanging on.

Hanging on to the boat containing all my baggage.
It was getting so hard

To keep my

Grip on

the boat.




Holding on to the all my worries, my troubles, my heartaches, my burdens, my sins,

everything that I needed to unload into the boat.
" But some of them need to come back out! I can deal with them myself!!" I told myself.

I just kept holding on to the boat

As the waves grew stronger.

Holding,
holding,

Holding.



“LET GO OF THE BOAT!” HE SAID.

 

COMING SOON..YE'ALL COME ON BACK..PLEASE

 I am going to write reviews for books and movies..  The books are childrens chapter books that I have had since I was a child.  The movies are just random movies.  I just saw one that I really enjoyed, and it had a message to it.  It is listed under suspense and horror, but it is no where like either of these.  The movie is entitled, "The Tall Man"   About good and bad.  With a twist.  I highly recommend it.  Please come back from time to time.  I dont write on any kind of schedule, I just write when I have time, or the spirit moves me.