Yes, I just feel this way. I am a failure. I fail at almost everything I do. I get excited about something and do it, only to fail at it. I try to do nice things for people, only to fail. I want friends so desparately and I say something and scare them away. I try to be positive and loving and kind. But I guess I am not the kind of person that people like. So depressing. I am so lonely. I have no friends. I was so excited about making pumpkin soup for Halloween, but no one ate any. I had to take it home. My feelings are so hurt. Last Halloween I made a graveyard cake. No one ate any.
I volunteered to be on a prayer group and I failed at that. I failed at a volunteer job that I had. Christians are supposed to help each other. We are family after all. There was a time that we were desparte for finances and all we got was a box of food. I am being boldly honest. Our taxes had to be paid or the sherrif was going to put us out, our house would be forclosed on. Food did help with a small portion of the finances. However it was not food that I nomally buy..not for a diabetic. They did not ask what kinds of food we eat. Perhap the buyer was buying for my son. Some of the food was bought in such a large amount that it would go bad before it would be eaten. We donated some of the food to the tornado victims. I dont ask for help until I am so desparate. I believe the Bible says to help other christians esp. members of the church. They even collect money to help others on the 5th Sunday. I am sure there was reasons for what happened with it all. The lack of communication was the actual final indication that I did not belong at that church any more. Time to move on.
This is satan making feel so worthless. I am not good at anything he tells me. Lord, I need you to tell me what I am good at. I need someone to tell me they love me. I dont feel cared about. I feel so alone. All this does not include my husband. He works hard and is gone a lot. He loves me. Someone told me when I feel bad, to wait 24 hours and see how I feel then. The bible says to keep doing good if surrounded by bad whether it be a bad situation, a bad feeling, a feeling of failure. Pray on the situation. Wait for Gods replay. Know He is in control. Hide in the Lord. Be at Peace. Read the Bible.
I was in a Friendship Bible study and I said something very bad, now I am not in it anymore. I had prayer requests on the prayer chain and my update was not posted. Just because I dont go to that church anymore, I am banned from all the perks. Well, I will spend today praying and reading God's word And doing what I would normally do.
I admit that I am lazy. I watch too much tv. I am lax in my health. I dont cook for my son. I have so much to do and dont do it. For years I blamed it on having to work, but now my life is staying home and managing a house hold. I waste it. I need motivation, I guess. God motivate me. But when I do get motivated to do something, I fail : ( The pumpkin soup. : ( : ' ( : ' O
