PETE AND REPEAT

 I know that I repeat a lot in my blogs.  I am getting older so forgive me please.  I am in a Bible study on friendship.  I love learning more about Jesus and His example of friendship. 

I used to be the "fun" friend.  Growing up, I was the "life of the party" and made people laugh.  Somehow somewhere this person "died"  I blame it on emotional abuse.  I was scared to be myself for many years.  I want to be a fun friend.  I have lost the ability to make friends.  I am desparate to learn how to do this again.  But I am blessed with people I consiter friends.  I guess I try to hard to get everyone to like me and want to be around me.  I try to hard to find a "best" friend.  I have a best friend.  She has been my best friend since I was 9.  But sadly she lives in another state.  I have to admit..I DO have friends.  But I feel I am not the kind of friend I want to be.  I had a life lesson this past week.  I will talk about this later.   It has to do with conflict and someone still being my "friend" even though I behaved badly.  She thought nothing of it. 

To come later, I will write on my DIRTY LAUNDRY and how God loves and forgives me.  He sent his son to die for me!  He sent his son to die for you too!!